My 4 years of waiting and praying that it works for me and my boyfriend

 Why has life chose to treat me like this

My 4 years of waiting and praying that it works for me and my boyfriend. He is getting married to anotherI just called him and all he kept saying is that he is sorryHe dumped me just because I said no sëx before marriage. He has been insisting that he want to teste the market he wants to buy but I have always said NO. He kept saying he will sh0ck me, I didn't understand that what he means is that he will marry another lady without telling me. This is our last conversation yesterday where I promised to give it to him harder on our wedding night Now, he is getting married next tomorrow.I can't breath well, someone should advice me on what to do before i do what's on my mind